entry 16
I know that it has been a while. I had an entry 16 done and then when I hit create post it never showed up. I rewrote it about 3 more times and it never posted it so I gave up and never ended up writing haha. Well last weekend I went on a college marathon with my dad. I think I know where I want to go!! And my dad said that he will help me out! So that is some good news. I went to the mall today and I bought this really pretty pink, peach dress for Easter. It has this really cool neckline. I bought it at Forever 21. I really enjoy that store. I also bought an eyeshadow palette from Sephora! I am pumped to try it out. I have really oily eyelids so no matter what eyeshadow or primer I use, it creases. But the lady put this Stila concealer on and then the eyeshadow has not creased!! I am so happy! I bought the palette. Tomorrow I am going to see if it will not crease if I do not put on the concealer first. I didnt but it because I did not want to spend $23 on this small little tube if I didnt have to. I had a giftcard to Macys that I needed to use so I bought a sports bra and two pairs of underwear. A bunch of my friends and I decided that we were going to join the tennis team. It has been so much fun! Last night two of my friends that had played last year threw us a little party and then we started talking about drugs… They brought up that Nick, CJ, and Frannie snorted hydro at school… I knew that Nick had done it before but the fact that he did it at school shocked me. My mind went into overdrive. I did not want to reach out to Nick, but I was not sure what to do. This is going to sound selfish, but if he dies, it will kill me. I have no idea what I would do. None. I would take responsability for it. I dont think that he will overdose. I think that he will combine too many things and he will kill himself. I cant deal with that. So I texted Dylan. He is a mutual friend, but actually really close with Nick. I tested him last night and asked him to call me when he could. We talked on the phone and he told me that he was really worried about them too. For the other guys that are doing these drugs, its just a phase; not for Nick. And it scares me. I dont know what to do. I know that it is not my place to say anything, but it affects me. I remember Nick telling me when we werent together that if anything happened to me, he would probably end up killing himself and that I have to take care of myself because it isnt fair to him. And that is the same way I am feeling right now towards him. I dont know what to do…
